987) My mind works in ways that both fascinate and discourage me. Though I know better in my head, somehow, I have the idea that if I am suffering, then it doesn’t “count” because there are so many others in the world who are suffering from “worse” things. I will also think because Acts 2:11 says that God does not play favorites, then I’m no more important in his eyes than anyone else. I have this little part of me that wants to be the “biggest” sufferer and the “most favorite” in God’s eyes. I know! This thinking is preposterous, but sometimes, when I am deeply hurt, I have a part of me that says, Suck it up! You really have so much to be thankful for.

In considering this, I wonder if Satan plants these thoughts to discourage and belittle me. If God says that he plays no favorites and he also said he is love itself, then that alone is my evidence that my thinking is incorrect. Faith is what we need to stand on when considering a principle of God’s word when our feelings scream negative things.